Smiling While Dying

Smiling on the outside
Dying on the inside
Compared, Contrasted
Never what you wanted me to be
You never saw the pain
Never saw the tears
As if it mattered anyway
I'm not a person
Just an object, a toy
No feelings or fears
But I do feel
I do have fears
You played on them
Or have you forgotten?
My mind you adored
A voice of an angel
Too bad I don't look like one
I wasn't what you wanted me to be
So I smile on the outside
And die on the inside
All because of you